Day 1

Today I listened to eighteen hypnosis tracks. Yesterday thirteen. This is the most I've ever done. I just need to check out of reality and become someone else overnight, build myself up for the trials ahead. Now I feel detached from my body. Could barely feel the sensations of a vibrator, couldn't feel caffeine, sounds seem far away or muffled. My brain will have a lot to process tonight. I went to the store to get snacks, watched an episode of an anime and did some light skincare, now I'm drinking wine because there's nothing I want to do. The sooner I sleep the sooner I can process the hypnosis, I shouldn't be taking in anymore information by being awake. Yesterday I heard three sirens and today one, and I think the day before a police car stopped another car in my estate, they put the flashing lights on. This is unusual. I listened to hypnosis to let go of the past. I'm unsure about it because I don't want to forget things even if they're painful, but I am traumatised.