Day 2 Continued

I was trying to insulate myself from the news to not let the shock terrorise me but I just saw it and am ready to kill myself. I just self-harmed. I also listened to one more hypnosis track and tuned into Li's Twitch. I've been crying listening to the hypnosis tracks the past few days. I have made up my mind to end it. There is no point in staying to fight patriarchy because men will still be monsters and there is too many of them to make me want to share the same earth. This is hell.