Day 3

I listened to 16 hypnosis tracks today and feel worse. Yesterday morning I planted seeds, forgot to mention. Today... I went to the store, showered, ate pizza, listened to 16 hypnosis tracks, then went to the promenade. While I was there I felt detached from my body again, like I was still under hypnosis. Having to walk past the restaurants always makes me feel lonely. I can't go to them by myself and already feel like people can tell I'm a loner when I go to the promenade. One man said hello to me. I noticed black specks in my vision which move with my gaze, this has happened the past three times in natural light now so I'm worried I've permanently damaged my eyesight. I passed Jade and it disturbed me because she either knows someone where I live or she's trying to find out where I live. I've seen her around a few times and there is no good reason for her to go to my closest store, there are closer ones to her and it's pretty far from her house. It's still early but I want to sleep now so. I didn't cry as much today.