Past week

I found out I've been entered into the chemistry exams after all. I thought they fucked up and didn't enter me. I never got a notification and the deadline passed. So I'm going to London on Tuesday and am freaking out about it because I don't want to be around men and don't know what to pack. My trusted clothes for London trips have disintegrated from being washed too much. I'm panicking about the exams too. Also the past week, the closest thing I have to a friend ended things with me, said my hatred of men was too much for her. I went to my dad's village and found that land has been given to the community so they can grow what they want and just eat it. Just like how it was before capitalism. I told them I would return to grow some things. I have my own space to grow things but I want to experience what life was like before capitalism. Then I found out from my DNA results that I match to the Hungarian House of Aba. It's starting to make me have identity issues tbh, I'd always considered myself to be Irish/British but now I have to have sympathy for all these other countries too. Yesterday I played with my cat in the garden and drank beer for most of the day. Today I feel worried because I don't think the gender war will end without violence. There will be a repeat of the witch trials if men aren't crushed, and they need to be crushed, because they're too radicalised for there to be equality again, and many are calling for violence against liberal women.